My weigh in is tomorrow morning!

Girlies,

So tomorrow my younger sister will weigh me in! We have this bet where if i dont lose at least 2lbs each week for a month I will pay her $20.

I have not given in to binges. I have restricted and drank so much water this past week. Its hard to believe. Today im eating this protien bar which is a treat for me since i love them, putting me at 750 cals today. Eww alot i know but i also made a 100 on my math exam.

Week 2 I look into being super strict about everthing! I have drawn somewhat of a meal plan. I fear that the weightloss will be slower and slower therefore I can not treat myself like I am today.

Yeah! stay strong! and remember summer is coming up! Is that bite worth your beauty? nope.

love,

jasmine

36 hour fast...more weight loss :)))

I didn't blog yesterday, but so far I have been fasting mostly on water and a bit of coffee.

New weight : 134.5lbs

Although yesterday I did chew one small piece of no cal gum because i took an exam and i didnt want to smoke a cig. It has been 36 hours and i feel great. I have not even been tempted by the slightest bit of food and it has been shoved right at me at school by my friends and at home.

I want to continue this fast for 48 hours. I have school this evening and might need to break it inorder to focus and pay attention. Im going to need the energy! OMG.

But im glad that i lost weight. The magic 5lbs are nothing but water weight. That is whats keeping me going...
I know that my sister will weigh me in tomorrow morning and it will be recorded on this paper I have taped to my mirror. I still feel fat. I still feel ugly. I can still feel the fat hang off me.

134lbs is still not acceptable. Its still obese.

How are u girlies doing? Dont let me down...

Love,
jasmine

Hunger is eating the fat

Hello sweeties,

In 11 hours I will have completed a 24 liquid fast of mostly water and tea with no sugars or gum..

Aha the hunger, the bad pangs of hunger I rejoice since its eating its fat away.. when i come back form school i will update on my fast.

Starve on ladies,

Jasmine

Another great day

Hello Lovlies,

Weighed 135.6lbs and its almost a one pound gain. I think its because I have increased my water intake and I have my scale on my room which has a carpeted floor. Its a very good Tanita scale so it is accurate. The manual does state, that its supposed to be on a hard floor. I dont think carpet is a hard floor.
Whatever, at least I got 6.6 lbs to lose to hit the 20's, i plan on fasting today with liquids and going for as long as i can. Im staying home alone til I go to school which is in the afternoon. I have noticed that the less I eat, the less I am able to sleep.
Yesterday, I ate around 1,000 cals because my mom and sister made me eat. Boo hoo, I meant to purge but it was too late and they would here besides I have already taken a shower.

Im out of coffee! I made me a coffee and I saw all kinds of junk food, even the peanutbutter jar opened, I resisted the food like no other. I am stronger and in control now and said NO to everything even if it was perfect for a b/p because I am home alone for a while. NO! not acceptable. I will only restrict and restrict.

So thats the plan, 4 liters of water plus my coffee and the plenty of teas i have...
im sure that will make me lose at least 1.5lb. if not just 1lb.

How are you lovlies doing? Dont let me down! and stay strong! You think, therefore you are! so think thin thoughts and do thin actions.

Jasmine

Lost amlost 7 lbs in 5 days! Woot woot!

Sorry I haven't blogged for a while. New weight is 134.8lbs down from 141.6

My week started last thursday with my little sister weighing me in. She will weigh me every thursday and if i dont lose at least 2lbs i will giver her $20 on the spot.

Its interesting how MIA comes in cycles. It seems so easy to slip in the b/p thing and so addicting too. I have been eating one apple, coffee with no sugar or cream for 4 days straight until i was very weak that i had increase my calories to no more than 500 cals per day.

I was working out on the 1 apple a day, one cup of coffee and lots of water and just felt like i was gonna pass out any second. I didnt want to pass out.

Yesterday i did great. And today I was really craving eggs so I made me a hard boiled egg, with one packet of ketchup and small slice of 70 cal wheat bread with tons of cofffee.
My mom bought peanut butter and its my WEAKNESS! oh my! its calorie content is horrific!

There was some smeared peanut butter on the side from my younger sisters breakfast that i managed to put the tinest amont on my finger just to taste it and get it over with and not eat the whole jar later.

I cant believe i cut myself for the first time yesterday. I was stressing out because of family issues, my mom bitched me out when it was really not my fault, it was over my older brothers stupid dumb partying actions. I felt a binge come up and just took a piece of a broken mirror and scratched my wrist a few times. The pain made me forget about food, i fell asleep and woke up thirsty.
I have figured out that the more water one drinks while severely restricting the less headaches and hunger pangs and the more weightloss. i know you hear about water being great blah blah but it really is.

So girlies, i really look forward to losing more weight. Im glad im at 134.8lbs and soon to break free from the 130's and into the 120's... I know i will be 110 in about 30 something days.

Love you all!! stay strong and dont let me down! I sure wont let u girls down

Jasmine

good day today so far...

Breaking frree from MIA

Today, just a beautiful day.

It was all going perfect, i had worked out at the gym. I had an apple and coffee.

Until i hit the schools cafeteria and ordered some chicken tenders with fries.

Oh im ruined. I meant to purge but i had class to attend and well the restrooms there are not the most purge friendly ones.

But i have made this deal with my younger sister who knows about my issues and also weighs 40lbs more than me. I will give her $20 each week if she promises me that she will weigh me and if i dont lose more than 2lbs per week. So its easy money on the table. And all she has to do is weigh me. If i lose more than 2lbs she gets no money.

But as soon as i hit my goal weight i told her i was gonna give her at least 10 or take her to dinner since all she does is eat. She was happy since shes money hungry with a broken down car.

How's that for you MIA? Im breaking free from her vicious cycle. And saying hello to my 120lbs body i used to have 4 months ago. Now im at 140lbs, very very hard to believe. All those fucking binges made me fat and bloated.

Here goes my journey again. This time I will succeed, cause someone is holding me accountable for my weight and theres money to lose if i dont.

Xoxx
jasmine

The hardest thing is to keep going

I hate not having a job, I hate being alone in my house. It all sucks. Im just tempted to eat and eat and never stop.

Its 10am. Geez, i meant to get up earlier and hit the gym but since I have class at 6pm I still got plenty of time. I also need to wash some clothes, clean my room a bit and cut up my chicken into tiny pieces before i freeze it. Oh and I must get my car's registration which is $60!! Really!! that is so much money to me.

Blogging gets so much out of my mind. Even if there are not a million followers, just the fact that my thoughts are out there somewhere sounds comforting.

And there's this boy, lets call him sammy. I met him online, he just texts and calls too much that its starting to get annoying. I really do believe in the advise that articles give to men about the encounter if it was 2-3 minutes, then dont text her much. If the encounter was meaningful and it was longer then text/call more often. Apparently, this boy doesnt understand that.

Anyway, enought about that boy drama. My party animal bff wants to go out saturday and honestly im not feeling it. I really dont want to go. Well if I do go, I dont want to go out Tuesday again because it will actually be Mardi Gras. I think she should just take a few college classes to see if she has that same attitude about partying every single weekend. Dont get me wrong I do love partying, but with an exam next week that I have to look forward to its not a good idea to party this weekend. And she doesnt even go to school. Sigh.

Oh my my, did this just inspire me to hit the gym and take a cup of coffee today... Here is the thinspo of the day. the VS angels.

What about I learned about Exercise in Biology Class Today

Today after sitting through a very interesting and long lecture did my bio professor who, has a Phd and many other degrees, went on to explain that exercise is the only thing that raises BMR.

No duh? huh? But it really hit me... just because he went on and on and throughly explained why and how.

Thus, it keeps metabolism up, its just how the body and energy work.

This has motivated me to really really start working out and not just restrict my calories. Oh and speaking of which, he also stated that there was a study done on a man who lost alot of weight eating twinkies. It proves that calories do matter.


Im glad i love to run. I will start running. But first I will start walking...

First day of the month, Its MARCH!

Isn't the first of every month very motivating?

Well for me it is,

I was doing good for about 5 days until it was my brothers birthday on the 26th and there was much much food. I had binged alot.

Day 3 of my binging was yesterday and i was feeling so sick of eating. I had my throat swell up too, along with toothaches. Day 4 of a non binge day today but I ate way too much. So I have made this calander and table thing on Word. I have printed it out and will put it on my mirror in my room.

I cant believe I was down to 136lbs and now im at 141lbs! Yikes, all those carbs do make my face bloated and fat. I feel as if people do stare at my fatness its gross its disgusting and i can feel it hang off my face. I want it gone, gone NOW! Its hard to believe i was 120lbs..Come back 120lb body.. please, I BEG YOU!

Spring is almost here, and i am no where near my goal weight. Gosh it has been forever since I have blogged. I think that the only thing that kept me strong was are the girls on here and other random readings i find online. I meant to drink only orange juice and coffee for a week, but i am not very good at juice fasting so why risk it?

Today i have bought my fruits and veggies along with a few pieces of chicken breast. I am ready to start tomorrow. I must get this fat off before summer. It must come off, it bothers me, it consumes me, its a curse. Fuck off Fat! I havent been to the gym in about 3 weeks either, since the ice and snow storm. Hell, thats a long time not to be in the gym.

Im excited for this weekend, me and my bff are planning on hitting the club and getting laid! aha, geez i havent had sex since August 2010. That is a LONG TIME! and I need to have sex, its a biological NEED! I hope not to be tempted by alcohol = empty calories= cravings=eating food=fat=hangovers too. <-----------NOPE not ME!

Im confident, im focused that I will achieve my goal weight this time. I will cause i Have SELF CONTROL.

Off to my biology lecture.

xoxo
jasmine