First day of the month, Its MARCH!

Isn't the first of every month very motivating?

Well for me it is,

I was doing good for about 5 days until it was my brothers birthday on the 26th and there was much much food. I had binged alot.

Day 3 of my binging was yesterday and i was feeling so sick of eating. I had my throat swell up too, along with toothaches. Day 4 of a non binge day today but I ate way too much. So I have made this calander and table thing on Word. I have printed it out and will put it on my mirror in my room.

I cant believe I was down to 136lbs and now im at 141lbs! Yikes, all those carbs do make my face bloated and fat. I feel as if people do stare at my fatness its gross its disgusting and i can feel it hang off my face. I want it gone, gone NOW! Its hard to believe i was 120lbs..Come back 120lb body.. please, I BEG YOU!

Spring is almost here, and i am no where near my goal weight. Gosh it has been forever since I have blogged. I think that the only thing that kept me strong was are the girls on here and other random readings i find online. I meant to drink only orange juice and coffee for a week, but i am not very good at juice fasting so why risk it?

Today i have bought my fruits and veggies along with a few pieces of chicken breast. I am ready to start tomorrow. I must get this fat off before summer. It must come off, it bothers me, it consumes me, its a curse. Fuck off Fat! I havent been to the gym in about 3 weeks either, since the ice and snow storm. Hell, thats a long time not to be in the gym.

Im excited for this weekend, me and my bff are planning on hitting the club and getting laid! aha, geez i havent had sex since August 2010. That is a LONG TIME! and I need to have sex, its a biological NEED! I hope not to be tempted by alcohol = empty calories= cravings=eating food=fat=hangovers too. <-----------NOPE not ME!

Im confident, im focused that I will achieve my goal weight this time. I will cause i Have SELF CONTROL.

Off to my biology lecture.

xoxo
jasmine